R looks at me stunned ( I have asked DH to not write me in on R's schedule - in case I am delayed )
He then tries to pick up the threads where we left them
Makes me sing all of our songs
Yellow Submarine
Hello Goodbye
Rudolph
Deck the halls etc
Slowly trying to take in that I am really there
I used to wonder earlier why he rushed up to me joyfully every evening after work -lifting his arms to be picked up, covering my face with kisses
But needed to somehow adjust when I return after a work trip
I used to wonder if he somehow had become used to being without me and that he had not missed me
But nowI know that the fact that he needs this sort of buffer zone before he fully connects - means the opposite
It means he had missed me too much
I ask him "Shee with Mother " ( mommy do bedtime )
He answers solemnly - "Ess" ( yes )
As I do our familiar bedtime routine - which now incorporates Pablo and Diego - he suddenly looks at me sadly - his face crumples - and the tears start
I hold him close and tell him that though I travel - I take him with me everywhere in my heart
And I do
As he finally drifts off into a deep sleep ( sleeping for the next 12 hours ) I look at his slight sleeping form in the half light and thank god for the giving me this enchanting child
Melody asks us to share a truth that we feel in our heart today
And the truth - is that I feel there never was a mother more loved
14 comments:
Sweet and hard to be so deeply missed and needed.
Thanks for sharing this.
What a great picture of him...sleeping, they're so angelic that way! I need a buffer zone when my hubby returns home from work (when he's gone 2 weeks.) We usually go out to eat or spend an hour or so getting caught up before we can get back in the groove of life.
There is something magical about a sleeping child, but what is more magical is the relationship you two share.
Love you K!
Beautifully stated. i am still enchanted watching my nearly grown baby boy sleep (he'll be 17yo next month). They always looks so at peace.
What an adorable picture of your sleeping son. Somehow, when they are sleeping, everything seems calm and perfect.
Aww! That brought tears to my eyes. There's nothing like the love between a mother and child. What a beautiful picture and sweet post!
"A boy is a magical creature - you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can't lock him out of your heart." ~Allan Beck
Another great post K....
One child I work with, requests his songs as soon as he sees me too. Yellow Submarine is one of his favourites. I love that he loves music.
So sweet! Love your post and photo.
Isn't it wonderful, what our children can tell us without words?
So sweet, and what a precious picture of him :).
Awww - I love that he loves you so!
And I feel like I am always telling you what a darling he is :)
So sweet. I love this!
Your truth always, always, awakens my heart.
He is so beautiful...and so is his mother's love.
just beautiful. all of it...and I am enchanted with your boy. he is precious!
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